What ifs

by Chevvy, posted in Poetry

These questions that gnaw at me,

nibbling at the joy that life brings,

feeding me with cheesy excuses,

muddling doubts, impotent fears,

stealing glitter off golden moments,

when I should have been totally here,

not wondering on my own out there–

an exile behind my own prison walls.

What if this is what was meant for me

all along, complete with every crack,

every blemish that prizes the antique,

aspired by most but afforded to a few.

What if I had made an irrevocable error–

taking the bus and not boarding the train,

believing that life had to ride the highway

instead of pausing at each station en route?

What if there were no what ifs to choose–

where automation usurped my controls,

clipped my wings so that I could not fly?

Would I be the me that has reason to be?

What if I told you that this is exactly it?

I’m just where I need to be, here with you?

It’s in the the stars my love, in the stars!

Thank you to Marie from ComeFlywithme for the prompt to write this poem

28 thoughts on “What ifs”

    1. Sorry, my earlier response belongs here.
      Thank you Lady M for the great conversation for sparking a thought that was simmering awhile. I’m glad you found it relevant. Most of us have the keys to unlock ourselves – we may just have misplaced them. I wonder if there is anyone who never asks a What if question. I suppose those who have reached the highest most spiritual levels of gratitude?
      Thanks again for the prompt my dear.

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      1. Thank you Chevvy. You very wisely and prophetically said that there was a reason why I landed on your page. At the time, we weren’t sure what the reason might have been. But it has become very clear now because as you say: I ‘sparked a thought that was simmering a while’.
        My reason for landing was to be that ‘prompt’ and I’m all for a little prompting now and then.:)
        Thanks for writing a poem which I will treasure.
        Btw, have you seen Anna Waldherr’s insightful comment sparked by your poem? There sure are a lot of sparks flying today!!! 🙂

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      3. Dear Chevvy I have seen all your lovely, thoughtful comments. This is just a holding message to let you know that I intend to respond soon. Maybe not today as I’ve spent a lot of time on WordPress today. I’m a little tired now and need to do something else for a while. And…. the Inauguration has just started so I feel I must concentrate on that.
        So look out for those replies in the next day or two. It’s been a joy exchanging news/views today and I will be in touch very soon.:)

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  2. Loved this: “cheesy excuses / muddling doubts, impotent fears / stealing glitter off golden moments / when I should have been totally here.” Neither past nor future should be allowed to steal the glitter of this golden moment–RIGHT NOW! Where we are now is the sum of all our past experiences. The future is lived one moment at a time. Great job, Chev! 🙂

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  4. Chevvy, you already know girl!
    I LOVED the fact that you urged us to consider a life on autopilot.
    You’ve shown us the importance of having many options and “what ifs.”
    Oh, you know I loved your mention of the stars.
    BTW, I’ve missed some time in your lovely studio.
    I’ll be catching up throughout the day💞💋
    BEAUTIFUL 🌹

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    1. Hey there Girlfriend. I’ve been missing you. So glad to see you here. Oh I think that between writing this poem and different comments, the words have evolved. I almost feel that I could write a whole new poem on the same title. I know you could if I ever enticed you to write poetry😊
      Yes the stars are always there ( I see a poem write there) I’m watching mine this week so don’t go breaking my heart now😀💔

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      1. Chevvy, seriously, reading your poetry is akin to drinking a fine wine.
        One must savor it by letting it settle on the palette.
        I have to take my time in the ‘studio.’
        But, no worries, I’ll always be around.

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      2. That’s such a lovely description. Thank you Gwin. Take your time. Remember my invitation is for you to lounge around and linger at what takes your fancy. Yes, I am missing you but we all have things to do. I’m rushed off my feet with work I have to do. Always great to see you. ❤️

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