
Procrastination


Rose tinted memories,
your footsteps everywhere.
Each pathway I walked
with a phantom escort.
I tried to shake you off
but you steadily followed me.
In my disguise, I tried to hide,
yet still, you discovered me.
Now I see you everywhere;
converging the seasons
of a love which has sprouted,
slowly simmered, then burned
into memories’ rose-tinted love.

Thrown from your routine–
Where each sunrise brings purpose,
Suddenly alone
I think of you
As bags are packed–
Traffic exodus of crowds,
Silence now too loud
I think of you
Incarcerated–
Behind tears of loneliness,
Festive observer
I think of you
Who for the first time–
Must sleep on that double bed,
You always shared
I think of you
Hoping and praying–
That you will dress in seasons,
Where time comes to pass
I think of you
See your smiling face–
As you slowly realize,
I’m thinking of you
He is always thinking of you too.

Unseasonal–
is the soft drizzle, that mists up
my window pane – enveloping
and comforting –as a mother
to her newborn child.
Unseasonal–
when roles are reversed–
wanting, to take foetal position
for yourself – to be cuddled and nursed,
still oblivious to the world of heartache.
Unseasonal–
when Autumn leaves loiter about,
wanting, retrieval of the buds of Spring,
retracing the steps of your youth,
wandering– what you would do differently.
Unseasonal–
though it may seem– rain will come
as it chooses, soft drizzle or pelting hard!
Is it in your stars, the choice or the measure–
or do you just choose to dance in the rain…
wherever and whenever it comes …

The realization-
Wait for the tide to roll in
Listen to its cyclical music
If you fathom its silence
You’ll hear its orchestra rush in
With nourishing food for your soul

I thought I had you in the palm of my hand
Captivated by my scintillating charm
Wrapped tightly on the wrist of my arm
Until I woke up to the sound of the alarm
Where did you go when I was asleep?
Lately you have taken to the tracks
Racing wildly like hunting wolves in packs
Slipping through the fissures and the cracks
Moving in the shadows, conspiring with the sun
Contracting my nights, stretching through my days
Fooling me, blinding my sight in contrived ways
Confusing my colors with luminescent greys
Was it just a dream or did I see you fleetingly?
So suddenly, you conjure your magic tricks on me
I feel your temperature drop by a fractional degree
A subtle change, the first leaf falls from the tree.
Mistakenly, I thought I had you enraptured
Instead I am the victim that time has captured.

A heaviness constricted his heart as he pushed and shoved against
swirls of people. Anonymous faces, vacant and blank stares left him
feeling the emptiness of crowds that followed blindly. He searched
desperately for that familiar face.
She was on the train
wistfully gazing at him,
wrenching a deep groan.

I knew you when life was innocent
Like a babe in powder puff blankets
When your eyes still held a sparkle
Like the taste of foreign cuisine
Still distinct and experimentally spicy
When flavors were still imagined
I knew you when we were both lost
Entangled in the undergrowth of youth,
Of woven stems and mysterious brush
When we were free to define a new path
Climb the tallest trees seeking adventure
And envision new horizons’ allure
I knew you when you basked in my glory
When I searched the crowd for your face
Because my crown was ours to share
For all the good loving you vested in me
But best of all, it was that mischievous
Smile, dancing on the edge of your laughter
I knew you when we needed each other
To make our two worlds complete
When the universe was our hidden oyster
A brilliant white pearl, only our love’s secret
When the sound of your voice cocooned me
Then set me free to fly to the furthest skies
I knew you when you loved me deeply
Without mountains challenging us steeply
Time has gone by, seasons have changed
And I realize that I need to know you all over again
Spring has its glory and Autumn its own story to tell